A Honest Year in Review

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Happy New Year’s Eve!

I hope you all are as ready to ring in 2015 as I am. DCT and I will actually have a really low key NYE as we are both getting over being sick. Pajamas, a bottle of champagne, and an endless supply of Theraflu is on our menu tonight. Lame, I know, but this is what happens when you get old, kids 😉

So now’s the time when everyone starts taking a look back at the year they’ve had. Even Facebook created mini photo yearbooks, capturing your special moments. And it’s sweet and fun, but I must confess I didn’t share mine as I didn’t feel it actually captured how my year really was.

The theme of this post is an honest year in review, and to be honest – this wasn’t the best year I’ve had. And to be even brutally honest – I’m SO ready for it to be over.

I had my fair share of highs, but in comparison I had a lot more lows. So while this is usually the time I’d wax poetic about all my accomplishments from the year past, I (honestly) find it hard to think of them.

I’m not trying to be negative, I’m being real – this was a HARD year. It most likely went unnoticed on here as I always try to portray the pretty and fun parts of life. But truth be told, those were few and far between.

I won’t go into the gory details and get all woe is me, but I do want to discuss something about the world I’m in – the fashion blogging world.

Y’all, fashion blogging is so freaking WEIRD.

And keeping with the theme of honesty for this post – I got burnt out from it all.

So burnt out that I was physically ill {and mentally exhausted} for the entire month of December. And I’m the type of person who never gets sick.

Looking back on this past year I see how consumed I was with finding a way to fit into this mold of ultimate fashion blogger, and it literally drove me to jealousy, overwhelm, and eventually – complete burnout.

And that is no way to live or be a part of the blogging community.

So part of me is grateful for the burnout and sickness that came in December. It made me realize I needed to take a minute and figure my shit out.

Don’t get me wrong, I think fashion and lifestyle blogging is great. It has given me many opportunities and connected me to people I otherwise would never meet.

However. It is a world permanently wrapped around the idea that life is all beach rays & peonies.

And while there’s nothing wrong with pretty flowers and sunny vacays – I love them just as much as the next person – being surrounded by it all the time makes you appreciate them less, almost to a point of resentment.

I can’t speak for everyone, but I believe there’s an overarching fear of sharing our human side in blogging – the messy, real, everyday stuff.

And granted not everyone wants to see you’re wearing sweatpants and eating mac n cheese for the third night in a row.

But if you can’t embrace the low moments in life, how can you truly appreciate the highs?

So instead of forcing a post that goes over my favorite outfits or best moments from this past year, I’m going to be real and simply say remembering this year will make me truly appreciate the good times that are on the horizon.

I also want to take this time and let you know that there will be some content changing on KATNP.

Deep down I’ve been craving for a change, but I’ve been too scared that you all might not like it and I’d lose the audience I’d worked so hard to gain.

But I’m taking the risk, and I so hope you’ll enjoy what’s to come. I can’t guarantee 100% what it’ll turn into, but I am excited for the opportunities it may bring.

2014 was a hell of a year.

Here’s to 2015 totally kicking it’s ass.

It’s already got a leg up – I’m getting married this year. {eeek!}

Have a very happy new year!

See ya in 2015!

All my love,

Ashlei

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5 Responses to A Honest Year in Review

  1. I’m sorry that this year wasn’t your best year Ashlei… I really home things go better for you this year in whatever it is that you’re going to do :) Happy New Year!!!